" I, like God, do not play with dice and I don't believe in coincidences"

i just met the girl of my dreams, unfortunately she was just a dream, but she was perfect, a little piece of everything i wanted, from girls i've come across in life. she was beautiful, but in a subtle way, no make up or crazy hair, all natural. her face had a bit of a monotonous look to it, but when she smiled, you can tell she really cared about something, and the only times she really smiled where when she was me, she was foraying, from either italy or france i can't remember,  and her body wasn't great, but it was modest. she enjoyed almost everything i enjoyed, but most of all she enjoyed me. i don't know if it was gay of me to just write down my dream, and if it is then oh well, but honestly, it was a good feeling. i hate when you dream up this perfect life, this perfect situation, this perfect girl, only to wake and find out your still stuck in your shit hole. i started to read choke last night, i hope i finish it before the movie comes out (july i think). registration is today and it was suppose to start at 6:00 but turns out there maintenance from 6:00 to 10:00. nice timing i guess. i really want to start playing world of warcraft again, i don't know why, all these talks with one of my co-workers just gave me a really bad itch for it. i really could use some inspiration in my life, more so motivation. i need something that will get me through the day with ease. something that will get me through the day with a smile